A kindled desire

Im not symphathetic,im apathetic ;)
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Anyhoooo,im very irritated and turn-off by the fact that i've maths tuition tomollow and hella,its holidays!!!
Wazz up with tuition hur hur hur? But yah,whatever,i've promised to buck up this Jun holz. And im certain with this theory of "A leopard never changes its spots" & dude,actions do speak louder than words :)
On a side note,i want my fred perry shoe & my new guitar!!!! :(
I wna catch Night at the Museum 2 too! Shall pull sherlynwong to watch with me!!! (8
Solly,blog's been rather dull and bare this few days. No more camwhoring aura.

Luckz to people who're taking their o level chinese tmr! :D
"I heave a big sigh of remorse,to see how i had ruin things in my own hands."

Mundane life=dull blog.

Chiong town today to get my buttons and im a hairpee kid now ^^V
& I realise i really need to get a new guitar. So many songs i wna master....
&& I havent watched my Cashmere Mafia since last week.
&&& I needa chiong my studies this June holz.

Dimsum tomollow morning \m/
I.need.to.exercise.

Time heals all wounds.

LIBERATION STARTS FROM TODAY~

Awrightzzz,since im like waiting for my hair to dry then i can hit the sack,i shall do a wordy post in the honour of Faithgloria since she mentioned before that my posts only contains a few words -.- Gotten back my report book today and like i mentioned before,this is my worst mid-years results ever. I passed 4 failed 3. I actually failed my combine humanities which i expected myself to pass,thus the fact that i failed it is rather disheartening. Oh ya! & I passed my Emaths for the velly velly first time during major exams! *Loud chuckles* I merely passed it and im really pysched and motivated to do even better for the upcoming ones!!!!! :)

Sec3 camp is way more enjoyable and happening then what i expected. This results in my aching limbs now i swear i feel fking weary now. & i think im a bravo :P :P :P

Went town just now mainly to repair my ipod. 5-7 working days then i can collect it :( SighZX.
Just gotta make do with the phone's media player for now. Pfffttttt.

Flashbacks are inevitable.
All good things come to an end. But i thought humans often preach that f/s lasts longer than r/s.
Anyhoooo, Humans definitely do not do what they preach, :)
Stop your paranoia,rach.

It's just plain weird

Adventure camp is like ji tiring yi xia and the sun is like totally a killa.

& i still have to go back tmr and it ends at 10!!!!! Wpiangz,can die plox.

But the high elements were like wooohoooo~ Enjoyed this part the most.

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Peishan says:

Why life so sian one sial

You always dont get what you want

Exactly same sentiments.

Somethings,

No matter how hard you try,how much effort you put in,it's useless.

You just need that BIT of luck,to pull you through everything.

& I guess im still searching through for THIS bit of luck in my bullet-train life.

:)

Some pics from Sat:

I look like some retarded spastic ass shouting in the mid-air.

Know your enemy/Love your enemy

IM A PRETENDER :D
Hor,Tina ^^

Tell you guys,my results are total depression,really cannot make it. I really cannot imagine how would my mom reacts when she know about my stinky sucky piece of shitz results. I really had THIS much confidence in my Emaths for the very very first time in my entire life. But to my disappointment,i failed:( Huge heave of sigh..... I failed my combine humanities too. I also thought that i could pass,but to my dismay,i FAILED too. Do i lead a life of a failure?! Whatever things that im confident with,i will just screw it up. Whats up with me huh? Am i that incompetent or isit i did not put in enough effort?
I really dont wna get this kind of fucked up results anymore. It will be the first and the last time.
So peeeeps,plox motivate me to study alright? :D If i ever change my mind to go out instead of studying,SCOLD ME FOR ALL YOU WANT. FREE SCOLDINGS!!!! Heh.
Kkz,so enough of wallowing in self-pity for the whole day. I think i should start thinking how to explain for my lousy results :( KKZ,ENOUGH RACH!

One had to give in eventually girl,cause i had accept the fact to LOVE YOUR ENEMY.
Hehez,im a gracious kid YES!!!!!!!!

My barely 2 months old ipod died on me today
:(

Whisperingwars@lj

Agenda:
-Read My Sister's Keeper
-Watch Cashmere Mafia.
^.^

Now,im glad that im officially freed from all these shitz :)

I'll stand with arms high and hearts abandoned

SATURDAY:

PLAY!Fun in the house today! The weather was kinda breezy for the whole day and praise and worship is uber happening and superb!!! Enjoyed myself and Faith,does the seawater tase nice?! :D :D :D

HarbourFront for Mac then home mali home. I swear my eyelids are near to closing now.

FRIDAY:
Towned.

Today,i surrendered

Wrenched

Im really right about myself,a barely 15 years old screwed up girl.
This is my worst mid-years ever. Never had i flunk so much subjects):
& with the fact that i actually pin high hopes on my MATHS this time round cause i spend like 400 bux a month on it.
& a FAIL is what i actually get. Im sucha let down to my parents,wasting their hard-earned money. I feel so guilty & useless): ): ): Please God,help me pass my overall.
Failed my biology,border line passed my chemistry and english,failed my Emaths,falied my history by 1 pathetic mark. Still havent got back my Social Studies and Amaths.

On a brighter note
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I got an A1 for my chinese and i top the class ^.^(1st smiley face in this post)
This is the only result im proud of and the only one i revealed to my parents.
I cant imagine their reaction when they know of my buang results.
Guess i had learnt my lesson this time round. "No last minute studying

ANYHOW,
just finished my laps. Gna go town later.
Should i go for some retail therepy with my mother or go out with the galzx?!?!?!?!
Not really in the mood anyw...................):

Till then,
RACH-WILL-BE-BACK ^^

A-mazing

I know my helpless and dismal state leaves both of you in wry......
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ANYHOW,
There's a difference between 'complaining" and "expressing my sorrow" right right?
I dont even think i have the liberty to do that,sigh sigh.
Somehow,i pity you at times. You've to be at someone's beck and call and endure that person ever non-stop rants.
:D :D :D
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Sherlyn Wong says: She buay song i'll be behind your back.
Emotional Rachael says:You behind? I scared she cannot see you.

It's just a matter of fact uh huh sherlyn wong.
Im velly velly the tired and i almost dozed off while eating my meepok just now.....
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Miserable At Best

It's 11.10 now.
& ima gna hit the sack soon.
Timah for pool,Vans house for poker.
My Bloody Valentine=Ownz.
Spell d.o.o.m tomorrow :"(

Check out this cutie little poodle over here~

I love the limelight,who dont?

Making a mountain of a molehill. Stop being so paranoid,and kindly get some pathetic life.

I have been haunted by this for a long time,tell me what to do about it~

Pros/Cons?

Sounds comforting enough.

:) G'night all

Mid-years are over ^.^

Anyhow,just came back from balling at cckcc just now.
Ji tired yi xia.
"Freedom Of Speech" That aint the right way to use it girls :) Get some life plox.
Kkz,so i've no skO.Ol tomollow and ima happy.

P/s:Today's the 1st time i ate gelare. Obiang,i know.

Im Queer

No paper today=Dont havta attend skO.Ol=Hairpee
Went to study alone at Yewtee Mac just now and i finally finished my Amaths sums \m/
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Im drinking caramel frappe now ^^
& tomollow's da day! Last paper ^.^ x100
&& most prolly going balling tmr after !@#$%^&* years.
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Tuition at night zzzzz zzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzz

*****I'd a dream 2 days back*****
*****& it's prolly the 5th time again*****
*****I cant really remember the content,but it's something akin to hairpeeness*****
*****The fact that i dont rmb it,does it mean that it will happen?*****
Kkz,whatever Rach.

It's gna be 5pm,shall go ZzZzZzZz awhile first.
Ciaoooooooooxxxxooooo

Amaths like sian only

Stay close,dont go

I envy,how?

Went for service today.
I ate medium cup frolicks with oreo toppings.
I drank Java chip.
I ate a crunch ice-cream
"I wna have a good figure"
HAHAHA. Damn kewlz.

& yay,me is gna make a new specz tomollow.

"Like bird face"

"Faith was like O-M-G" HAHA

& lastly,SARANG HAEYO ^.^

Been long since we did this hahaha

Ji loving yi xia.

It's a friday and i have a long weekend again for this week :D
Towned just now and met up with wenjia and her two flenxxx.
Played blackjack and me and sherlyn ownz big time kkkz :) :) :)

Took alot of piccazx today,but i look damn cui in almost all the picccazx. My eyes are like getting smaller by each day,guess it's due to the lack of sleep O.O Am.very.tired. NAW.

Neeways,some sad news to announce.
I failed my Chemistry by 6 marks):

I lost 24 marks in Emaths paper2 today cuz i didnt had time to finish it
& the worst thing is,i'd to shit halfway through the paper urghxxxx!!!
I swear im a fucking demoralised kid now.
Im dread getting back my results sighxxx sighxxx
How am i fucking gna face my parents? An ultimate failure & disappointment :"(
AHHHHH.....Enough of all these unhappiness. Shit life okay.

Right now,before i get hell when my results are back,i shall enjoy whilst i could ^.^
But still,i cant get over my chemistry results!!!!!! Why fail T_T T_T T_T
Incompetent.

I need moolah.
On a side note,i ate only a meal today ^.^
& that explains my growling stomach now z_Z
ANYHOW,G'NIGHT

Biology's another screwed up subject.
Or why not let's say,when have i ever not screwed up any of my sciences?!
Call me an utterly screwed up girl. I just cant get anything right. This is really starting to get onto my bloody nerves.
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But at least mid-years are gna be over........Phew~~~
Im velly velly the disappointed and upset now.

Me going to take a nap now.
& i wna have a good figure.
Byezzzz

Chemistry people is a total gone case): It does not make any difference if i studied for the extra 3 hours ystd.
Im like half-asleep when doing my paper today.But still,it wont affect the result cause ME.CATCH.NO.BALLS.
"Good Game alrightzx". Fuck,now the only way now to make myself feel better is to fare well for biology which has a highly slim chance of doing so. 3 more chaps!!!!!!

Okay,so i just woke up from my 11-5 nap,damn shiok.
Im gna go bathe then studyyyyyyyyyy.
K,i cant wait for friday plox.
& Fuck,im always losing it. Someone tell me why am i so unlucky.
Nincompoop

Just came back from studying with Gerald and Sherlyn at Sengkang.
Sherlynwong,thxxxx me ploxxxxx ^.^
Screw Chemistry,Screw exams.
Im gna have a brain malfunctioning soon after all these shitz from chemistry....URGHX.
I shall stop whining & go watch telly! I studied for the noon already kayyyzx.
Diu lei lo mo urghxxxx.

I yearn I wish I wait but nothing comes out of it eventually. Fruitless,oh well.........
ANYHOWWWWW,
Tina and Sherlyn spent the night over at my place on Sunday & we did xcore mugging till 3am in da morning. Covalent bonds Ionic bonds,HONG GAN!
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Tina's "Kiss me through the phone" woke me up in the morning.
Went to eat then came back to my crib again. This time with Faith,Val & Gaddiel.
Continue mugging and well,it was quite productive. & we had a cat fight when studying half-way ZZZ & the funny part is sherlynwong's shirt tore at the sleeve.....HA-HA.
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Today,had Emaths paper1. Uh uh uh was quite okay,hope that i can fare well.
Gna study with Sherlynwong later.
OHHHHHHH. & I saw 11:11 just now ^^

Im left deep in thoughts.

Tell me how to stop this rush of affection in me.

Distraught,yes i am.

Supzx People. I desperately need to get.some.life urghxxxx.
I went to towntowntown ystd with the slim hope of trying to do some productive studying which failed obviously. Ended up chatting away.....
Oh and yayx1000,me finally get to see wenjia! :) :) :)

I literally rotted myself away at home today.
Woke up at 1. Ate my lunch,then went to sleep again till 6. And my eyes are on the verge of closing now.....
But i finished one chapter of biology just now and my mum said velly good.
5 more chaps to go!!!!!!! *Pulls hair* I hope i can have the energy to survive through the night later on.

I think im beginning to transform into a hardcore nerd. Cuz my entire msn convo with tuna hole is all about CHEMISTRY. Ahhhhhh,the killer :"(

Kkkkk,need.to.study liaozxzxzxzxzxzx
& c'mon Rach,stop being so protective ploxxxxx.

(C)Timmy's Camera.

More tomollow!!!!!!!!!!