Yes hi humans. Currently at all times low now. Dejected.yes i am. What a loser am i,still pinning unrequited hopes of salvaging this friendship back while the other party aint giving two hoots bout it at all. Because of this friendship,i lost my pride by looking you up and apologizing for my mistakes repeatedly and sending you countless number of texts on apologizing and admitting on my mistakes and willingness to change. But were you even willing to give me a last and only chance to do so? I know i disappointed you countless times too last time,but i admit i was a childish,ignorant,stubborn,unreasonable,wilful,temperamental bad lil whore. You corrected me from my flaws,but i refused to listen and instead,gave you attitude. When come to think of it now,im seriously sucha bad attitude girl yet i dint realised until the major quarrel we had. But everything was just too late. You decided to give yourself a break from all this shit coming out from me and decided to be clever and stop caring about my stuffs. Yea,you've the rights to do so. But i dont want,im too used to telling about my daily stuffs to you,complaining every single little things im unhappy to you,gossiping bout people,you poking your nose into my business and vice versa and you,being my all time best listener. I poured every thing im sad,happy,angry to you and now you aint there. Everything i bottled up inside me,who am i suppose to turn to? I know everything i'd done in the past has disappointed you countless time that you're alr immuned to it,i suppose so. Now,im not gonna retalliate and debate with you. I admit,i really really realised my folly now. But it aint gonna be of any use,cause you dont fucking give two hoots bout me anymore.
All those sincere apologies from me,you dont hella appreciate at all. Instead,im being labelled by you as "Irritating" and "Dont speak about her,my mood will change" What fucking hella is this? Till now,i still dont know the reason why you dont wanna speak your mind to me about how you feel so i can change. You dont wish to speak,how the hella can i freaking figure out what you're thinking. Im not superwoman okay,dumb.
Im feeling pissed and dejected right here. Hella yes,temperamental. You've prove this theory right: "Once gone,forever gone". Hella thanks hur,maybe this will teach me not to commit too much into a friendship next time. Thanks and i'll fuck off from your life right now. I wont be your bug and irritate you anymore.
Have a nice day ahead,freaknight.
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